Have you ever felt lonely?
My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only he will release my feet from the snare.
Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.
Relieve the troubles of my heart and
free me from my anguish.
Well I do right now.
I feel abandoned and lonely!
Ever since my son was born I have seen less and less of my friends.
I know it's not because they don't still love me, it's because we are in different parts of our lives now.
It really, totally sucks.
I don't have many friends who actually have kids that I can get together with and have play dates.
I started blogging around the time I stopped seeing most of my friends regularly.
I think it was a way for me to try to find friends in my area.
People who have kids and would enjoy hanging out with Zane & me and not just want to see me without him.
But I still haven't found anyone really.
I have started following people who live close to me but we haven't connected or even really spoken through e-mail or anything.
I have tried but no one has really been that responsive at all.
Which is fine I don't expect people to jump at the
chance to be my friend.
I'd just love to have someone to talk to or go out with.
Even have a girls night with once & awhile.
I am just so fucking lonely!
I need someone to share my mommy stresses with,
someone who will understand and not just blow it off like it's not important.
I feel like having a child has made me a leper.
I am not at all saying that I would EVER change my life!!
I love every single second I have with my son.
I just need an adult friend who understands the trials & tribulations of being a mommy.
I know, I know I sound like a whiney bitch,
but come on don't I deserve to have people in this world who want to hang out with me,
talk to me,
and all that comes along with a friendship?
I think I do!
Actually I know I do.
I am just very unlucky in finding it.
Maybe someday someone will come into my life and finally be there for me forever as my friend.
A girl can hope right?