My weight is a huge issue in my eyes.
I am completely uncomfortable in my own body.
I can't look in the mirror without being completely disgusted with what I see.
I have been on Weight Watchers since January
but I have not lost the weight I was hoping to lose in that time.
I love food and I don't want to give up what I love to eat.
But I need a change!
I NEED to be able to look at myself in the mirror
and love myself again.
I fell off of WW for a little bit I am getting myself back on it this week.
My husband loves me no matter what I look like
and he tells me that every day
but I don't love myself.
I want to be able to look in the mirror and at least feel good about what I look like.
I want to be able to play with my children without being out of breath.
I want to fit into the clothes I love and look good in them.
I want to be comfortable in my own skin.
I actually truly hate myself right now.
There isn't one thing about myself that I can say I love or even like for that matter.
I think I am disgusting.
But I need help...
I don't know how to do this myself.
I'm at a loss.
I have been praying for guidance and what to do.
I don't feel like I have gotten an answer.
But I am still waiting for it...
and I will continue to wait for it until it comes.
I know the Lord is busy and has lots of other requests from others.
I am just one tiny girl waiting for an answer.
He'll come when the time is right
and so I wait.
I will continue Weight Watchers
and I am hoping that I can try a Barre3 class soon.
I have done some research the past couple days on it
and it looks like fun + a great workout.
I just have to find the means to pay for it since our house is up for sale we don't have a ton of extra money for that kind of thing.
I am just doing workouts at home now for the time being.
So hopefully something will begin to happen.
Wish me luck
and keep me in your prayers.